Sometimes people see what I do and think Oh I wish I could do that, I want to stay home and earn money while taking care of my kids. I’m here to admit to you that it’s not that glamorous. Nope I’m not a blogger that is invited on trips to see movie premiers (although you don’t get any payment it would be kind of cool), and no I’m not able to travel to all these conferences. It has taken my 5 years of hard dedication and actual research, yes if you want to do this you need to research social media and SEO and learn how to run a website!
Lately I have been getting back-handed by life. Just this afternoon my son Korey and his father were in a car accident, now we have no vehicle. Korey passed his PT evaluation but the therapist still recommends he receives it, which isn’t good because now we need to fight to get him PT. I’ve become more buried in work which is great with the money but watching your kids at home is hard when you’re working, often I’m losing so much sleep at night just to get work done.
I want to tap out. I just want to throw in the towel.
Not feeling like a good enough mom or blogger is stressing me out daily. There is some invisible standard that I feel I have to uphold as a woman for being a mother and a blogger. I don’t know exactly what this standard is I just know that I never feel good enough.
No I’m not going to throw in the towel, I know it’s just a very bad time right now in my life and eventually it will all turn around, hopefully soon.
Have you ever wanted to quit something you love?