Before My Son’s Autism Diagnosis
The other day I put a call into the closest developmental medical practice. This is something that I have been putting off for a long time until Korey’s preschool teacher from last year suggested it as the Summer session was coming to a close.
What testing do you need?
When the woman on the other end of the line asked me that I told her “Sensory Processing Disorder or Autism”. We only do Autism, let’s start his registration process. For years we were told how smart Korey is, and almost all the therapists believed that he most definitely had Sensory Processing Disorder but not Autism.
I had fought so hard for his SPD to be recognized and not classified as Autism, and now I’m here.
How much does this change?
I know that this is going to change things for Korey as he goes through school and therapy now. An Autism diagnosis will hopefully be more helpful for us in finding what he needs for therapy and how to help these behaviors that we have been facing for 2 years.
What it doesn’t change
Although I’m starting the grieving process that I went through with SPD, there’s still one thing that doesn’t change. The love I have for my son. No matter what diagnosis Korey ever receives, I know that this quirks and behaviors are part of what molded his personality.
I wouldn’t change my sweet, laughable, reading, singing four-year-old for anything. Yes I would love for him to be able to fall asleep faster, yes I want him to sit still for 5 minutes or more.
However, if that changes how he comes to me when I am upset and tells me everything will be okay. How he comforts his little brother when he cries, and will sing and dance to his own songs he makes up all the time.
If that’s all shaped by his disorders, then bring it on Autism. To be honest I’m terrified of this new journey but fear will not get in the way of me helping my son as much as possible.
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